You Are NOT Alone...

Grief and support for loss of a beloved pet · Dustii Miller · July 6 at 8:57 PM >>> · All my life when I have grieved the death of a pet, l was told I am overreacting. When I was a kid being told this, It broke my heart. I had no one to console me during a time of sorrow. And today my own effing husband repeated these words to me. As I lay here sobbing over a cat I just had put to sleep earlier today. I watched her head slump down as the medication took effect. Im not even allowed 24 hours to grieve kuz that just means supper isn't being made and his video game is interrupted. He did offer that we get take out. Not that I am even hungry in the slightest… but we have 3 kids to feed too. And hearing him tell me I’m overreacting, just like everyone else, has effed me up even more and now I’m cooking supper while sobbing because I feel like I’m obligated too now. I feel regret. Shame. Guilt. And so much sadness. This is the first time I’ve had to make the decision of euthanasia. And being apart of it, making sure she wasn’t alone has really fucked me up watching her pass away and I keep having images projected into my mind of all the ways I could have helped her mixed in with images, flashbacks of my time with her. The only person I want to talk to about it thinks I’m sad for no reason. And that breaks my effing heart even more knowing I am alone in this.